Alone. Chapter 19

Well Victor is long gone. He has yet to write any of us. He never keeps in touch. He acts like he did the first time he left for a trip. This long distance is killing me. Before he left he seemed very preoccupied over something again. I feel horrible. And I know Elizabeth feels the same way. She is very upset. I know she does not want to be mad at Victor for the wedding, but she has waited her whole life for this. Our relationship is getting further apart. We hardly talk now. We just go on doing our business, not even mentioning Victor because that's a very sensitive subject for both of us. We try to keep each other strong, but how can we do that if we barely acknowledge each other? Fixing my family is what my goal is right now. Every night before I go to bed, I pray that things will get better. That things would go to the ways things used to be before. Before Caroline, Justine and William died. Before when we were actually a family. Those are the things in my mind right before I cry myself to  sleep at night.
                                                                                                          -Alphonse Frankenstein

Goodbye's...Again Chapter 18

After Victor's mysterious trip, I thought he would get better. I actually thought that his trip would give him time alone to think things through. And he has improved, somewhat. I see that he seems better than he was before, but I can also see that there is something nagging him at the back of his mind. I, as a father, would love to know what it is to try to help him out through it. But I can see how it's not really possible since he doesn't say much nowadays. He seems better in character, even though quite a few times I have caught him staring out at space with such a face that no human being should ever have to make. It's a face without a doubt of hurt. But most importantly, I see him questioning himself. As if blaming himself for whatever it is that is bothering him. It is as if someone asked him to kill someone. But that's ridiculous. Isn't it?
              Anyhow, I've proposed to Victor that maybe it is the wedding that is bothering him. Maybe he doesn't want to marry at a time like this. Though he has reassured me that the wedding is the only happiness that has been brought to his life. I believe that. That is why I asked him if he wanted to get married as soon as possible. He answered by saying that he wanted to do some studies before he would get married. He wanted to go to England with his best friend, Henry. He also told me that upon his return he would want to get married. I think it would be a good experience for him to go so he could get better. I consented. Even though it is a two year tour, I know that Elizabeth will wait for him. After all, it is for his own good. Farewell my loyal son, I will truly miss you.
                                                                                                          -Alphonse Frankenstein

Where is...? Chapter 17

I am getting very worried. Victor still hasn't come back to us. Things at the house haven't gotten better either. Elizabeth is still very preoccupied with Victor's disappearance. I have tried to reason with her and tell her everything will be alright, yet I cannot convince her of anything. She needs to see Victor for herself. She has this weird thing in her mind that something bad has happened to Victor. I tell her not to worry, everything will be better, eventually. And yet, I cannot stop to think if what Elizabeth said was really true. Could something have happened to Victor? No, I cannot think this negative. I have suffered greatly the last couple of years, I cannot have something happen to Victor too. How will I go on now? How will poor Elizabeth handle this? I keep praying that he will come back to us soon. All of this is getting to my head. There are too many things to worry about nowadays. With Victor's return, I know things will get better. I just know it. Surely, here he comes...
                                                                                                     -Alphonse Frankenstein

Still Waiting Chapter 15

Victor is still missing. I am getting worried. But I can see that he may need this time to think things through. He may want some alone time. Elizabeth still isn't getting any better. I can see that all this is affecting her. I truly feel for her. She is as if one of my children and I don't want her to have to go through all of this. She has already suffered from William and Justine's death. It was even harder on her because she was sure that Justine was not guilty. Don't forget Caroline's death either. All of these events hit us pretty hard. I try to make the best of it considering I still have two of my children with me. I need to act as a role model for them. I talked to Elizabeth a couple of minutes ago and she seems lost in her own world. I know she needs Victor here with her. We all need Victor here with us. We need to fix everything that has affected us. But of course i know that is impossible. What I feel that we should do is have them marry. I feel that with them married, they will have a better life and will be happy as they were before. Though I know Victor, and he will surely have something else in mind. So I sit here and wait, for Victor's return.
                        -Alphonse Frankenstein

Thinking Chapter 13

Victor has yet to return. He doesn't seem to be the same since his trip to Ingolstadt. I can see that something is preoccupying him. I don't know what it is though. I thought this trip would be good for all of us, but it is just the complete opposite. Victor is in pain and his own father doesn't know what the cause is. Elizabeth is worried about Victor. She seems to think that this is her fault somehow. I try to change her mind, but she won't listen to me. She needs to see that Victor is going to be okay. I think what I need to do is to ask Victor about the wedding. This may be what he is worrying about. He may be nervous. I, as a father, need to make him feel better. After all, that is what I'm here for. I will have a little chat with him later on...if only I knew where he is right now.
                                                                                                 -Alphonse Frankenstein.

Family Vacation Chapter 9

We traveled to our house in Belrive. It was my attempt to hopefully cheer my family back and get them to normal, which I believe is not going to happen. Victor is worrying me more now. I can tell that he is taking this extremely hard. Even poor Elizabeth is not the same she was before. Victor seems so lost in his own world. There is something else on his mind too. It's as if he believes himself to be the murderer of the losses of our family. My poor family will never be the same again. What I thought was that this place would make us stronger, and yet it is where we are falling apart. I cannot handle my emotions. I've come into a dead end. I will never be the same again. And worse, Victor has left without any trace. What kind of a father am I?
                                                                                                 -Alphonse Frankenstein.

Deaths ... Chapters 7-8

I feel nothing. My heart is in my chest, but it is as if there is nothing there. How can anyone go on with such horrifying events in their life? I have now lost my son and have lost Justine, who has been accused of killing my son. How much more can I possibly take before I am caused to shatter into a billion tiny pieces? But I shall go on for Victor and Elizabeth. I know that if I weren't there, they would surely not make it. I have never failed them before, I have to be strong and hold it together to set an example. But I know I can't do it. I did not rest until I found my beloved William and yet I cannot control myself in grieving for him. Caroline's death already made my heart stop, now with two more people dead I don't think there is much more to do about my dreadful situations. But I need to do it for my children. I need to take their minds off of the incident, and hopefully I will too. I know just where to go now...
                                                                                                   -Alphonse Frankenstein.