Goodbye's...Again Chapter 18

After Victor's mysterious trip, I thought he would get better. I actually thought that his trip would give him time alone to think things through. And he has improved, somewhat. I see that he seems better than he was before, but I can also see that there is something nagging him at the back of his mind. I, as a father, would love to know what it is to try to help him out through it. But I can see how it's not really possible since he doesn't say much nowadays. He seems better in character, even though quite a few times I have caught him staring out at space with such a face that no human being should ever have to make. It's a face without a doubt of hurt. But most importantly, I see him questioning himself. As if blaming himself for whatever it is that is bothering him. It is as if someone asked him to kill someone. But that's ridiculous. Isn't it?
              Anyhow, I've proposed to Victor that maybe it is the wedding that is bothering him. Maybe he doesn't want to marry at a time like this. Though he has reassured me that the wedding is the only happiness that has been brought to his life. I believe that. That is why I asked him if he wanted to get married as soon as possible. He answered by saying that he wanted to do some studies before he would get married. He wanted to go to England with his best friend, Henry. He also told me that upon his return he would want to get married. I think it would be a good experience for him to go so he could get better. I consented. Even though it is a two year tour, I know that Elizabeth will wait for him. After all, it is for his own good. Farewell my loyal son, I will truly miss you.
                                                                                                          -Alphonse Frankenstein